Families Are Made in Heaven And Friends Are On Earth
This is a story of the year 2009 when I return back after serving 3 year and 4-month sentence in Singapore prison. (the dark side of my life). once I stepped at the Tribhuvan International Airport being a long time in the mini world, everything was new for me. I came out of the Airport and there was no one to receive me, and felt normal cause I came from prison not by getting an international Award and exchanging the 50 dollars that I had before I entered prison. then I called up the taxi and headed towards the house when I reached home, I saw no one in the house and the house was also so filthy that shocked me, looks so dirty. I entered to house and the whole house was rented but I didn't see any of my family I didn't know what to do because my family have shifted to a new house which was built by my brother.
My Mommy Was Happy
In a meantime, I saw a woman who was unknown to me that she had rented my house, I asked her about my family and she said that they have shifted to a new house. I guess that my brother has built a house no more than behind where I used to play football. Almost all the ground was empty when I have gone to Singapore in the year 2004. but in the year 2009, everything changed there were very few fields remaining. so I went to a new house there I saw my brother (who has already come before me from Singapore) in the window probably waiting for me, when he saw me he shouted: "Go and open the door Dinesh has come". he had known that I am coming home after a long sentence. I saw happiness on his face though I return back from prison he had no such feeling that to be guilty.
My sister came to the door and open, her eyes were full of tears and I didn't have feelings about her sister tearing, up cause my brain was totally disturbed. my family was happy, but I didn't see my mother and asked them "where is mommy". and they said that she has gone to America for 6 months and within a month she is coming back. I was surprised to hear this because I was unknown of mommy America's visit.
So new home same families with new life, new ways of living, and unbreakable thinking patterns. A few months passed, and nothing had to do with an empty mind. after staying in the dark side for a long time. the brain was almost blank. and I couldn't control my mind and started to recall the past, being spent with friends consuming drugs.
You dont have to do it alone ,I am right here
Days were passing, and my younger generation was on the track of consuming drugs (grass), and they used to smoke in the back of my house. by seeing all these people hanging behind my house and smoking grass. Again my self-esteem loses control and a kind of interest aroused in me and I called up one of my younger brothers who surprised me by gifting me some of the grass. and from that day I was surprised by how my brain was guiding me. All the old places are filled with houses and old friends have changed; everyone is loaded with money mind but mine was blank and now again drugs replace it. Again I started to have fun and this time it was meant to have grass as I was high differently. and addicted to it and started smoking hiding with families, and behaving differently with them.
I was staying in my nice room (shristhis room). I felt uncomfortable in her bed. so I asked my brother to bring me a new bed mattress, then he did it without responding any words to me. so after that, I had my own room. I asked my elder brother to send me a laptop from America when mommy was returning. so he sends it in the hand of my nephew. so with the demanding life, enjoying the present and not even regretting the past which was like a nightmare. I started to spend my life troubling my family unknowingly. My brother and mother and family were shocked by seeing my behavior. I started to threaten them saying want to be alone and don't want to be with them. My brother understood why I was making problems with all the families and he decided to send me to the rehabilitation center. So after around a year of being in the house and troubling all the families. I, myself decided to go to the rehab center because one of my best friends had already taken the course and he was clean of drugs and was my suffering partner. end of march 2010, I was in the rehab center. I hated to be in the center, I always think that the rehab center is for street junkies who don't have anyone to take care of them. I became one of the candidates to face that terrible house. but once I entered there with my brother. one of my suffering friends was conducting a druggist counselor. being that friend in the center I felt secure. I started to gain knowledge about drugs and attempted classes. I spend three months so fast that I quit drugs, being three months in the center realized a lot of things about drugs, and how it was spoiling my life and dream. and my family's relationship. I stayed there with different people making different friends in different surroundings. And hearing their shearings I was clear that I was not the only guy having problems with families. so after recovering and returning from the drug center, my mommy was happy and whole families were happy. I stopped to argue and started to cooperate with families. whatever they lend me I receive. started to attend weekly "Never Alone" (N.A.) meetings. started daycare in the same rehab center where I clean up my drug life.
I was having a comfortable life with friends and family so my life got a second chance to start up and that makes me happy. after spending two months plus conducting as a volunteer counselor. I got an opportunity to come to Denmark. where my younger brother was studying and working too. he has given me a suggestion. so he sponsor me from Denmark and I applied for Denmark, as saying God in my right hand, I got the visa. so I came to Denmark and the story ended up in Portugal.
Nothing is right in life unless you realize its responsibility